Ahimsa-Nonviolence

I've been wanting to blog lately, so this is the perfect time to start again! I so desperately want to share what I learn with the world. I read a passage from Meditations from the Mat almost daily and I'd like to share some of what I learn here. Here is the passage from Day 19:


"Well, darkness has a hunger that's insatiable, and lightness has a call that's hard to hear."  -Indigo Girls


"I read recently that a new war crime has been added to the list of crimes the United Nations is prosecuting. I spent some time digesting this information, willing myself to envision its victims and to imagine its perpetrators as my brothers and sisters. I tried to feel for a moment the suffering of human beings lost in the living hell that is war. My work with children and families in the relatively quiet towns and cities of the United States has given me a sense of the universality of that suffering. There is no end to it, and we minimize this truth, or believe that we are somehow disconnected from it, at our own peril.
Not long ago, a friend of mine, went to a gas station to call for help with her drug problem. She couldn't use the phone in her apartment because she had already sold it for drugs. A few months later, after cleaning up her act a little, she went back to using drugs--only to experience far greater consequences this time. Who among us has not either fallen into a downward spiral or been afraid of following in my friend's footsteps? Who has not known the insatiable hunger of darkness? 
'Lightness is has a call that's hard to hear,' but each time we choose to hear it, the call becomes a little clearer. We spend our days badgered by voices that tell us to judge other, fear others, harm others, or harm ourselves. But we are not obligated to listen to those voices, or even to take responsibility for them. They may be where we came from, but they are not where we are going. There is another voice, a voice that shines. Ahimsa is the practice of listening to that voice of lightness, cultivating that voice, trusting that voice, acting upon that voice."


Ahimsa means nonviolence in thought, speech, and action. It is one of the cornerstone practices of yoga. We are asked to pay no attention to those negative, harmful thoughts about both others and ourselves. As we go about our daily life, let go of those thoughts and embrace the positive, light ones. See how this works for you. Remember, we are all connected :) 


Peace.

Yoga Teacher Training Week 1: I Never Imagined...

...just how much yoga could change your life in such a short period of time!!! I don’t know where to begin. I knew yoga was awesome (hence the reason for leaving a job that I had worked so hard to get) but man, I already feel back to my old self. I felt back to normal just after 3 days. Yes, 3 days. I no longer feel depressed, anxious, angry, fearful, resentful, and any other negative feeling that I was experiencing. I am so ridiculously happy and I have so much energy. Yeah, I said I have more energy after doing 4 hours of asana a day. Asana is the postures, i.e. physical practice of yoga. It is only one of the eight limbs of yoga. Yoga isn’t just the physical practice, it is a way of life.

I have learned SO MUCH in just one week. I feel so much more confident in myself and my abilities--almost 100% better! I just knew I would be anxious about instructing the class through asanas from memory, but I actually find myself looking forward to it. AWESOME!! I’m loving it. Us beautiful human beings have this thing called the subtle body. It is our energy body and it is a major focus of yoga. I can’t wait to learn more about this. I’ll share more with you as I do. It’s super interesting and it really changes the way you see life--in a better way, of course!

There are 11 of us in teacher training and I must say that it is an awesome group of people. It is SO GREAT to be surrounded by like-minded people who I can relate to. Everyone is so positive and we all seem to have gone through a lot of the same things. I find myself laughing all the time...it’s such a great time. I'm already missing them and I still have 7 more weeks to go!

Each day feels like a week to me. We get so much done in one day it is insane. I honestly didn’t do as much in one week as we do in a day. We are going non-stop. This is my biggest challenge at the moment. I hardly have any time to myself. Our breaks are super short so we only have time to eat and go to the bathroom--which we have to do both a lot because we are constantly having to nourish and hydrate our bodies after such rigorous practice. It is a blessing in disguise however because it will force me to let go of all of the unnecessary things I do. It will help me to simplify my life.

Another issue I’m having is getting time to go the the chiropractor to get adjusted. I haven’t been adjusted in a week and a half and I usually get adjusted twice a week. So, needless-to-say, I’m dying. My back finally started to hurt today. Ahhhh it’s so frustrating. I will be able to get there. Eventually. I hope :)

I can't think of any more at the moment (I had so much else I wanted to write but I'm drawing a blank...I'll add them as they come back to me.) I hope you all are doing wonderful.

Namaste.

Agenda 21

I have just been introduced to Agenda 21 and I thought you should be too.

 

Ron Paul is THE MAN

I pulled a couple things off of the Ron Paul 2012 Facebook group's wall. I thought they were neat.

‎"They who can give up essential liberty to obtain a little temporary safety, deserve neither liberty nor safety." --Benjamin Franklin

If you have a heart, you vote Democrat. If you have a brain, you vote Republican. But if you have both, you vote Ron Paul.


If you put the federal government in charge of the Sahara Desert, in 5 years there'd be a shortage of sand.
~ Milton Friedman


Revolution PAC

Ron Paul says " withdraw" Ron Paul says, " stop wars ", Ron Paul says, " Be responsible", Ron Paul says, " Take care of our own FIRST", Ron Paul says, " Live by the founding fathers words, AKA, " The Constitution".... That is why I will vote for Dr. Paul.... This man is the only person left, that has stuck by these principles. Why would you vote for anything less??????? Ron Paul 2012 and beyond..... Now if that is crazy, I must be crazy....

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Ron Paul getting booed at the Tea Party Debate 9-12-11

I Can't Even Believe It

I can't even believe I'm about to write what I am. This is absolutely upsurd that our media is presenting information in this light. There is NO WAY this is an honest mistake.

So what happened was this: Ron Paul won two CPAC Straw Polls and they used the reaction from the prior year's announcement of Ron Paul's win (which was made to supporters of Mitt Romney) in place of this year's announcement. The older version's audience response is full of booing--because they are Romney supporters. Duh. The REAL REACTION OF THE AUDIENCE IS FULL OF CHEERING. Obviously, they don't want Ron Paul to gain any momentum because they know he is everything they don't want. When I say they I mean the establishment, the banksters, whatever you want to call them.

I'm disgusted. I have no more words.

See it for yourself. If you can stomach it.

Here is the apology for their "honest mistake". Yeah. Right.

9/11 Conspiracy Theories

I came across this video on Eric Dubay's blog The Atlantean Conspiracy. It gave me quite the chuckle. 

It's informative and to the point. Watch it and learn.

Peace.

Uprising

I'm delighted to know that so many more people than I am aware of are aware of the corruption going on in our nation and world. Hah that's a confusing sentence. Anyway, I listen to Muse but haven't really listened to the lyrics. I pulled them up to see what they said and I was surprised to see that they were talking about mind control, dumbing down, and Truth! I LOVE THAT I JUST REALIZED THIS! There actually are people trying to promote awareness other than people behind a computer screen. Anyway, have a grand day.

Uprising by Muse
The paranoia is in bloom, the PR
The transmissions will resume
They'll try to push drugs
Keep us all dumbed down and hope that
We will never see the truth around
(So come on!)

Another promise, another scene, another
A package not to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on!)

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Interchanging mind control
Come let the revolution take its toll if you could
Flick the switch and open your third eye, you'd see that
We should never be afraid to die
(So come on!)

Rise up and take the power back, it's time that
The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that
Their time is coming to an end
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Hey .. hey ... hey .. hey!

They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Hey .. hey ... hey .. hey!

How Come

I just heard this song and I feel this same way. How come?! I simply don't understand why we can't just love. Love. Love.

How Come
Ray Lamontagne


People on the street now
Faces long and grim
Souls are feeling heavy
And faith is growing thin
Fears are getting stronger
You can Feel them on the rise
Hopelessness got some by the throat you can see it in their eyes
I said how come
How come
Everybody on a shoestring
Everybody in a hole
Everybody crossing their fingers and toes
Government man spin his politics till he got you pinned
Everybody trying to reach out to each other
But they don't know where to begin
I said how come
I can't tell
the free world
from living hell
I said how come
How come
all I see
is a child of god
in misery
I said how come the pistol now as profit
The bullet some kind of lord and king
But pain is the only promise that this so called savior is going to bring
Love can be a liar
And justice can be a thief
And freedom can be an empty cup from which everybody want to drink
I said how come
I can't tell
the free world
from living hell
I said how come
How come
all i see
is a child of god
in misery
I said how come
Its just man killing man
Killing man
Killing man
Killing man
Killing man
I don't understand
Its just man killing man

Changes, Changes :)

Hello friends, it's been a while since I've posted and my, how have things changed since then! The long anticipated (ahem, dreaded) date of August 10th has come and gone. Along with the job that started on that day. 

I decided, or perhaps made it 'public', that I was no longer going to go down the road to getting my CPA. This has been a long time coming, but it has taken me a while to get the courage to speak up and do something about it! To me, the rewards I would have gotten from the experience didn't measure up to the sacrifices I would have been making. I prayed about it and listened to my intuition to guide me in my decisions. I have no regrets thus far!

I feel as free as I did on the day I graduated from high school. The opportunities are endless right now. I am interested in so many other things, now I just have to narrow it down and get to it!! I'm pretty sure that the next step on my journey is yoga teacher training. I'm positive I want to do it at some point in my life, and I'm feeling that now is the time! The next training session begins on September 18th..right around the corner.

I am really passionate about sharing what I've learned in the past year with others. I've been reading many books about various topics that I feel could be of value to others. The information is out there but I'd like to present it in a concise, friendly way. I don't know yet what this entails, but we will see!! I am also super into spirituality so I'm trying to figure out how to work this into my everyday life and be able to share it with others.

Mind Over Matter

As I have been researching various things over the past couple months, the most powerful thing I have learned is that we create our reality with our thoughts. Quantum physics has begun to prove this. Check out this video from David Icke's website.

Words I Never Said

Thanks to Steven Croce I found this song from Lupe Fiasco. I'm so glad that someone well known by many is speaking about the Truth. Check it out.

From the Source

(from mediacontrol.org)

From the Source

If you want

a relationship

with someone,

use their name.

It's all practice.

No matter what

happens in life,

maintain stability

or else you'll sink.

There is only a need

for man-made laws

when one doesn't

follow God's laws.

When politics

divide people,

they are conquered.

You are your own last hope.

If you live in hope

then you will die in hope.

F^ck fantasy & dreams.

I'll take my

chances with reality.

There is

no identity

without a head.

People need peoples attention

because it gives them a sense of reality.

If you take

your attention

off of God,

then you

don't really exist.

God & existence

are inseparable

Everyone knows God.

You may not like Him;

no one is forcing you to.

All those who say

they don't

believe in God,

you can only

believe in what you know.

If you've never heard of God,

how can you say. 'I don't believe in Him.'

See God in yourself &

re-cog-nize who you are.

You can't say

you don't like mince pies

if you've never had one.

You can't say

you don't believe in Astrology

unless you've studied it.

Next time someone tells you,

'I don't believe in ghosts',

ask them when they last saw one.

If you see something

beyond your imagination,

generally speaking,

you will hear these words,

'I don't believe it!'

How can you deny

what is beyond

your imagination?

Life-supporting desires

manifest very quickly.

Love has the most power.

There's a little bit

of it in everyone.

Don't try to save the world,

save your own little bit.

Love is

a state of Being,

not something you

barter at the market.

Peace will come

after Nuclear warfare.

There won't be

many left to disturb it.

NEW

CLEAR

ENERGY

The new never comes

until the old is gone.

There's a big difference

between fear & curiosity.

Which camp are you in?

Fear is of the unknown,

curiosity is of the known.

The less illusions you have

the less pain you're going to feel.

Only the ignorant

get bored.

Selfish people

don't experience

the joy of gratitude.

How can you feel gratitude

if you don't express it?

People who live

in shallow waters

live shallow lives.

~Guru Om

Cure for Cancer!

This is very interesting...the times are a changin' (for the better).

Please pass along any videos you find interesting. The more people that know, the better! Our power is in awareness (& faith).

Click here for the video.

What Am I Doing?

The time has come for me to resume studying for the remainder of the CPA exam. I'm half-way there. Two more sections left--the hardest two at that.

I have been trying to start studying for what seems to be like two weeks now. My mind/ego always comes up with 'more important' things for me to do. Miniscule house chores, internet surfing, learning about something else.

I would rather learn about yoga, the energy flow, presence, enlightenment, about our world, how to fix and change our world for the better, among other things. The last thing I care to learn about at this point is accounting. If anyone has any motivational words please share them with me. I need it!!

Thanks for listening. Peace.

I Don't Get It

One thing I have never understood about government is why are we SOOOO concerned about all of the other countries? Why can't we just take care of the United States and that's it? Why can't we mind our own business and get out of everyone elses?

As I am watching the Republican Presidential Debate this question comes up again. I'd say at least 90% (that's being conservative) of the questions relate to a different country. NOT the United States. This seems odd to me. These are candidates running for the United States presidency, not the presidency for some other country. Why are we so involved in affairs other than our own? Why can't we be like Canada? (I don't know relatively anything about Canada but you NEVER hear about them in the news...they mind their own business, at least it seems that way.)

Well, it's because there is a group of global elite that are working towards a New World Order. A one government, one currency, one military, microchipped population. Sound nice? Well, it's where we are headed. WAKE UP!!! We must stand up and do something about this. If we just sit back and watch then it will happen. Step out of your comfort zone and stand up for what you believe in. Stand up for your rights.

It is still very early in the presidential elections but right now Ron Paul has my vote. He believes in minimal government, getting out of all of our foreign affairs, auditing the Federal Reserve System (the 'Fed'), among other things.

Take a look at him and what he stands for and believes in. Let's get back to the country that our Constitution intended it to be. Let's get back to the United States of America.

A Different Perspective

As I was clicking around on the computer (& listening to the neighbor's yippy dog) I came across a place where bible verses are interpreted metaphysically. If the verse you are looking for hasn't been interpreted yet, you are able to ask them to interpret it for you. Awesome.

The verse I read about tonight was John 14:5-6

"Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?" Jesus said to him, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

According to Rev. Ed at unity.org, traditionally these couple verses are taken to mean that anyone who is not a Christian is going to hell.

Don't you think that's a little crazy? Considering that Jesus is supposed to love us all no matter what...

Here is a different interpretation, one that makes more sense to me. Jesus is telling us to seek out and surrender to the Christ-like presence/energy within us. Only by doing this can we reach what we call 'God'. There are many paths to God. Jesus provides a path, along with Buddha, Muhammad, and others. No one way is the 'right' way but they all achieve the same purpose-to connect with God, our creator. Other names for God are light, being, presence, the now, etc.

Making Progress..

...in both yoga & the house.

I have attended Bikram yoga 3 days in a row!! Holy cow...it feels so great. I'm taking the day off tomorrow to spend time with Brady while he's off work. We have a whole slue of things to do for the house. We don't get to move our stuff in until the 14th because we are waiting on the painters and the carpet to be installed. They will actually be done a couple days sooner, but we are going to the Kings of Leon concert in Austin on Tuesday for my birthday...so we will just have to wait :)

~Here are some pictures of the progress~

Master Bedroom

Kitchen

Living Room Accent Wall

As far as Bikram goes...it is going great. I had my best day yet today. I'm getting acclimated to the heat, and boy does that help. I'm incredibly sore though...but I must push through that. I definitely didn't expect to love it this much. That's what I get for being snooty about my yoga studios.

Also, as I was looking to print out the recycling list in San Antonio I found out that it is one of the best in Texas! I'm so excited that I wanted to share it with y'all.

It's Hard to Believe Because...

Thought I'd share this with y'all...I found it last night and I don't remember the website, and I can't seem to find it in my history. But it's out there. Somewhere. These aren't my words. I'll add it as soon as I find the source.

Q: But, with the evidence out there, why aren't more people concerned about the Illuminati?

A: Because they simply can't, won't believe that this is happening. I am a strong Christian, and in Revelations, it says that right before the return of Jesus, people will be acting as if nothing has happened, that all is normal, in spite of evidence to the contrary. You could show people a video taken of a ritual, and they would declare: "it has to be a fake; people just don't do those things." You can show them a site with pentagrams, buried bones, and other evidence, and they would say, "Oh, that is just teenagers playing around". You can show them photos of underground tunnels near Los Alamos, and they will say, "Isn't that interesting. Must be some government project." They can be shown the scars on a survivor's body, from cigarette burns in childhood, and old lash marks that have healed on their back, and the question would be "are you sure it wasn't self inflicted?"

The evidence is there, but in my opinion, the average person does NOT want to know, and even when confronted with it, will look the other way.

The Franklin case is a point. How much evidence has come out? Or the MK-Ultra documents that have been declassified, shown as real, and people ignore it.

Okay, I'll get off my soap box. But I believe that the media that downplays ritual abuse is feeding into a deep need in the average person to NOT know the reality. In fact, how can a person face the fact of great evil in mankind, unless they have either a strong faith in God, or are faced with insurmountable evidence? We as human beings want to believe the BEST of our race, not the worst, IMHO.

(PS IMHO means In my Humble Opinion or In My Honest Opinion...I had to look it up)

Mind Control Video

I came across this video yesterday. I think it explains mind control and its origination very well.

It's hard to believe that people are sick enough to do this to others, but it happened & is still happening...

Federal Government Shutdown

So I just heard that there is a possibility that the Federal Government will shutdown on Friday at midnight. I knew that Congress was having issues coming to a resolution about the budget, but I didn't realize it was this extreme. I don't usually watch the news because most all of it is the media telling you what your opinion should be, in my opinion :) So, that's why I'm a couple days behind.

What even happens when the Federal Government shuts down?!

Do you think this could be planned? Maybe as part of a big, master plan called the New World Order??

That's a sneaking suspicion of mine!

let me know your thoughts

After I wrote this blog, I found this article. Please take the time to read it. I couldn't have said it better myself. I am happy that there is someone in Congress that is aware of what these New World Order people are doing.

Whewie!

Well, the past couple days have been a whirlwind to say the least. I took possession of the house & went to Bikram yoga for the first time on Wednesday. I am so glad to finally have the house!! The interior is being painted right now--I will post pics tomorrow because I had a little hiccup with my camera...I'll explain that in a minute.

Bikram was great! I'm so glad to being doing yoga again...I just love it. Although the entire 90 minutes I'm there I am wonder why the hell I would subject myself to this. But after class is when I find out why...because it works wonders for your mind, body, & soul. It is such a great feeling coming out of that HOT room and into the cool 82' dressing room knowing you just did something SO GREAT for your entire being. I liked it so much that I went back today. And I'm probably going tomorrow, too...if I'm not too sore ;)

Alright, about the camera.

Sooo...as I was moving things back and forth between my house and Scriven's my DSLR managed to fall out of my backpack and onto the driveway. Bummer. BIG bummer.

Take a look...

Sad, huh? Well, lucky for me...my birthday is on Monday! I got a new one because they said it would cost almost double the original price to fix it. As I'm unpacking it at home my contractor walks in so, naturally, I show him my busted up camera to explain why I got a new one. Like I have previously thought, he also thought that just the lens busted & a piece was left on the body. He took some pliers to it and got it off! So, I will be making a trip back to Best Buy to return my camera & just get a new lens (& save some $moolah$ too). He walked in a just the perfect time, otherwise I never would have thought to pry it off myself.

There is a life-situation update for you!

Peace

Natural Help Anyone?

As a result of my recent findings, I am going to try even harder to do things the natural way. I'm taking it a next step. I want to find a natural doctor. If you know me, you know I am always going to the doctor for one reason or another (TMJ, anxiety, ance, etc).

This is proving to be a bit more challenging than I had initially expected. I knew it was going to be hard because our modern medicine just treats the symptoms, not the actual cause of pain or disease. In my opinion, this is taking the easy way out. I have learned that physical disease is a result of an imbalance in our subtle energy body. So, I did a search to find a natural MD within 50 miles of San Antonio. Guess how many results I got?!

Zero.

Welp, it looks like I'm going to have to do a bit more research and digging. Thank God for the internet :) If anyone knows of anyone or a way to find someone then please let me know. This is a semi-new world to me.

I hope y'all have a great weekend & enjoy the sun (if you are so lucky to have it!)

Naturally Me

Today Was THE Day

Well, the day I have been waiting for for a while has come and (almost) gone! I closed on my first house today. How exciting! Now I just have five more days until I actually get it...it's soo close!

Many other great things happened today, so I'm going to list them here:

-My daily calendar (which provides insightful & witty quotes from the Universe everyday) said:

"It's not as if the currents of life

must be studied, examined, charted, explained, plied,

or channeled inorder to be effortlessly ridden upon.

Besides, you'd get soaked.

Let it be easy. You already know

what you need to know, to have it all"

The Universe

This really spoke to me because I'm always trying to figure everything out. It was a reminder that I don't HAVE to learn everything in order to live a blissful life.

Next on the list:

-I got a washer & dryer for the new house. I am beyond excited about this.

-Purchased 3 books, that I know will be GREAT. They are:

Practicing the Power of Now (a supplement to the awesome extended Power of Now by Eckart Tolle)

The Subtle Energy Body: The Complete Guide by Maureen Lockhart, Ph D.

...And the Truth Shall Set You Free by David Icke

I have already started reading the 3rd one listed. Holy Moses! This is right up my alley. It is basically explaining everything I have been reading up on: spirituality, energy and how it is related to the physical body, the Global Elite, and the solution to this issue. Be expecting some of what I learn to be shared here.

There is a little life-situation update for y'all. I hope this finds you in a happy place in yours.

Peace.

When Insiders Expose the Dark Side of the Entertainment Industry - pt. 2

Now I Know...

Recently, I've wondered why we have all of the crazy chemicals and processed foods. Why do we need all of that when we are provided with sufficient food by the earth--fruits, veggies, whole grains, etc? One might argue that they taste better. Ok, I can see that. But why were such harmful things (MSG, aspartame, high fructose corn syrup, etc) introduced into our diet?

Well, last week I came across a blog called Vigilant Citizen. Today, as I was catching up on all of my online reading, I came across this article. It answers a lot of my questions. It is hard to swallow--how could there be such terrible people out there?

Anyway, just wanted to share with whoever is reading :)

Truth

Over the past year or two, I have really been searching for the Truth. Truth about God, the world, the universe, and beyond. Of course, no one really knows why we are all here but we can make some pretty good guesses. One of the biggest questions of my life is "why can't we all just get along?!"

I have never understood why there is so much hate in the world. I don't understand how we have the capability to develop technology to use limited resources as fuel but we "can't" find a way to use water as fuel. I don't understand why someone would want to kidnap another's child.

Well, that post about Lady Gaga the other day? I think that there is a lot more to it. It is hard to read about it. I'm talking about the Illuminati now. I have just found the tip of the iceberg. I feel like they are the source of all of our problems. They are looked upon as satanic. Click that link for a ton more information. There is so much: from our cell phone towers, to the ingredients in our food (namely MSG & aspartame), to mainstream media, to September 11, to the pharmaceutical companies, and the list goes on...

Right now I feel as if it is my duty to bring awareness to this demented subject. This is not me just being a conspiracist, or having some crazy off-the-wall thoughts. This is real. You can't deny the evidence once you have seen some of it...the main place where I'm getting most of my information is educate-yourself.org. But once you have discovered this topic, you will soon find it everywhere

It is important to be in the proper mindset when reading all of this information. It can easily depress you because at first it seems that you have absolutely NO control over what is happening in our world, our society, and on our lovely planet. BUT, the truth is we do have control-at least a little bit. Our power is in awareness. The more people that know about it, that are aware of it, the greater chance we have of putting a stop to it. Of course, we will get no where without God. We must listen to that little voice, that whisper, and use it as our guide. That, my friends, is God speaking through you. I say through because God, the Spirit, dwells within us. He is not some man in the sky, therefore he cannot speak to us. We have been led to believe that because that's what they want us to believe.

I feel as though all of this (me becoming aware of the Illuminati & everything it entails) is an answer. Or at least the beginning of an answer to all of my thoughts, wishes, and prayers to find some sort of answer to better help me understand the world and humanity.

After all, the Daily Word is answered prayer.

(I could keep writing for days but I suppose I will save some of my thoughts and new information for future posts. If you think I'm crazy now or if you want to know more don't hesitate to look around on the internet. Like I said, educate-yourself.org is a great place to start.)

Inspired

I feel inspired. I just finished watching Masterclass: Oprah Winfrey. Her view on life and our purpose here really rings true to me. She inspires me to find my purpose in life. I wish I knew because it would make my life a lot easier. I'm ready to start fulfilling my purpose!! I want to make a difference in this world, I don't have time for depressed, low days anymore. It feels great to actually want to get out there and do something! To feel like what I have to contribute will make a difference.

Take this as a vow to myself for no more 'low' days.

Also, I kind of want to get a tattoo of a meaningful word, phrase, symbol, saying, verse, etc. I feel like I think about this at least two or three times a day. I can't just pick out one though. I suppose I'm not ready yet, I will know the word when I see it :)

Life Situation Update

Days left until:

-we close on the house 4

-we get the house 8

I'm excited! I've already started packing up. Yes, I'm pretty sure this is the first time I have actually done something ahead of time in a while. I've really been dragged down by the procrastination bug these past couple years. I was so good in high school!! I suppose the fact that I lived with my parents had something to do with that, they are pretty on top of things.

We meet the contractor at the house tomorrow morning to get an estimate about what it's going to take to get our wants/needs completed. Looking forward to that! We are also picking out paint, carpet, and a kitchen sink & faucet. Super excited!! We picked out most of our furniture last week, but I think I've changed my mind on a couple of pieces, so we will probably be making a trip back to Furniture Row as well. Things are starting to pick up as far as home stuff goes...I suppose studying will take the back burner for a while. Then, I'm going to have to hit the books hard. Woo hoo!! I just don't feel like getting a CPA will help me make a difference in the world...I suppose it's all in the plan though.

Apologies for the ramblings. I hope y'all have a fantastic, sunny, and awesome week!

Peace. Love. Harmony.

Holy Hell

I just came across this article and my heart is racing. I LOVE Lady Gaga. I think she sends out a great message: Love yourself.

I've been reading about a certain subject this past week. I don't really recollect how I became aware of it but I've been reading on it because it is such an insane, yet very realistic suspicion. I'm talking about the Illuminati. Don't know what I'm talking about? I'd don't really either, but I'm going to learn more about it. I've seen all the symbols, but never really thought anything of it. Now I'm super curious. (As I write this, I feel like the government is going to close my blog or something crazy like that!) It talks about mind control (I must learn more about this..!)

Anyway, here is the article.

(let me know your thoughts)

It speaks of how Lady G could be a puppet for the Illuminati.

Needless to say, I'm kind of sad to find this out about one of my favorite musicians. But should it? Make me sad, that is. I will have to find out more about all of this...

Do you know anything? Let me know in the comments!

A Sense of Peace

After reading a disturbing article last night, I asked the person who shared it with me how they keep from getting depressed when they learn about such awful things. He said that when you are uncovering negative truths to people you must either provide them with a solution/answer or remind them that our power is in awareness.

This resonated well with me. As I learn about all of these new things, I want to share them with people. More often than not, the person I'm sharing with could care less. I feel like people don't understand me and think I'm crazy for caring about such big picture and worldly things. They don't get why I'm all about love, energy, awareness, consciousness, meditation, etc.

Well...I came across a video, actually a number of videos, today that I could identify with. It is called Awareness. Watched it if you feel called to do so. Watch it even if you don't...it has some good insight into what is happening out there.

One of the other videos I watched, 2012: The Revolution Has Begun, gives me a great sense of relief. It's almost as if a prayer has been answered. I have been provided somewhat of an answer to what rattles through my head all the days long. It also, along with the previous video, allows me to realize that I'm not the only one with all of these 'crazy' thoughts. I feel like I'm part of something much larger.

Also, I found a neat video that explains how meditation works. I found it really interesting because I like to know the 'why' of things. It visually depicts the explanations and it makes a lot of sense to a right-brainer like me. Ask me if you want the link to that one.

Just wanted to share these videos with y'all (is there anyone out there?!). Let me know in the comments (or a message, if you like) what you think about 'em.

What Are We Suppose to Believe?

I'm clearly not a good blogger. It's been almost a month since my last post. I guess this is just a place for me to vent when I feel I have no other options at the moment. So, that's just what I'm going to do. Vent.

Lately, I've been watching a lot of documentaries because I just don't get enjoyment from watching 'regular' TV. I like watching things that will stimulate my thoughts...which isn't always a good thing.

I already wrote about what I saw in The Beautiful Truth (I think I did anyway...) which was about the 'food' that we eat. I learned (although, I already knew this to some extent) that we are largely deceived by the medical profession and the health care we receive. If only we could focus on preventative medicine...which I think we are slowly headed that way :)

Another documentary that I watched is called Loose Change. It focuses on the events of September 11, 2001. What I have concluded from it is that America, and the rest of the world, was and is still being deceived by our government. It is hugely possible that the government was behind the events that unfolded on that dreadful day. The evidence is there. It sickens me...gives me knots in my stomach.

Where are we suppose to turn when the 'best' government in the world is deceiving its citizens?! I feel like our freedom is disappearing slowly day by day. We must do something, now, in order to prevent this from going any farther. I just don't know what.

In another one called The Conspiracy to Rule the World it, again, focuses a lot on 9/11 (how the evidence points to government involvement), a group called Common Purpose that originated in the UK, and the United States amazing feat of putting a man on the moon. You know what I think about 9/11 already. But this Common Purpose thing? I've never heard of it. Apparently, it's a group that selectively admits and denies membership with objectives of transforming society. Initially, this sounds great to me. I'm always down for a transformation of society. As long as it's a beneficial change. But after learning more, Common Purpose is dangerous. For more information you should go to this website: www.stopcp.com

It is relatively complex and I don't feel like going into too much detail right now...frankly because I don't know that much about it.

And, about landing on the moon. They showed numerous pictures and videos and proved how each one was filmed on Earth rather than the moon. There was proof of gravity, for one, and light sources (such as those used in a photography studio). There were so many inconsistencies...and to think that the general public believed it. I have heard that we didn't actually make it to the moon when the government said we did, but I never paid much attention because I wasn't alive then. But after looking at the photos more in depth, it's undeniable.

What are we supposed to make of all of this? Right now, I feel like we know nothing about the truth...what are we suppose to believe?

So Much To Do...

You know how I get overwhelmed sometimes? Well, I'm overwhelmed and today I had a glimpse of one of my 'bad' days today. I didn't feel like doing anything and just wanted to sleep. I will not let this continue into tomorrow because I simply don't like feeling this way. I get overwhelmed when I start thinking about everything I'm going to do to the house. And when I'm going to study for the remainder of the CPA exam. And training Mack. And integrating the things I learn into my life. And the list goes on...

I have to step back and realign myself with the present moment. Quiet my mind and look to my inner peace. I have noticed that when I put this need (which, apparently, mine is larger than my peers) on the back burner I begin to get anxious, overwhelmed, and uneasy. I now know to use these signs as a reminder to focus on the big picture and be present. With the mind-chatter of the ego. Ahhhh....it feels so nice with silence.